For the past few days I've been going through what I can only describe as my first, and hopefully last, existential crisis. The entire concept of what the universe is had me terrified. I did research from numerous sources, but I found this video to be the most helpful to me. I recommend you watch it if you are feeling scared about things, especially what happens after you die.youtu.be/kRRgWV2lIvc
As I type this, I am physically ill, which has also affected my mental state severely, putting me into this existential panic. However, I have the answers I need. I will be perfectly fine, right now I feel "bad" still. Emotionally, I'm still scared when I ask myself certain 'deep' questions for a while, before I can find a reasonable thought to placate my fears. I know that these irrational and sudden rises of fear are due to my illness, and not me actually being afraid, contrary to what my lying anxiety says. We were build to enjoy life, and feeling negatively causes you to miss out on all the beauty and wonder in life.